kellye's Cancer Blog
November 2, 2008
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Barbara was admitted to inpatient hospice late yesterday afternoon. She is becoming so weak that she is not even able to get on the bedside commode without 2 people. It was a hard decision for her to move over there but she has been adament not wanting to die here. We don’t know how soon things may happen but her decline has been rapid over the past 3 or 4 days. They inserted a catheter today to help give her some relief and it just hurt she said. She is still begging to die. Up until recently Barbara had been involved in church and has always been an example, to me, of a Christian lady. This week she asked that Pastor Ed come over to see her in private. She had questions. He was scheduled to come Friday but Wednesday night she asked if he could come sooner. He came on Thursday morning. After they had their time he asked us to come back in the room where they were and said Barbara had just been saved. She had been baptised as a 10 year old but was doubting her salvation. She realized that she had just gone through the motions but not made the committment. She accepted Christ into her heart here in our living room. It was a very emotional experience for all of us here and an example to all to “get it settled”. As hard as all this is, we know where she will be for eternity. Her daughter in Canada is arriving tonight. We are taking shifts so she will not be alone. Please say a prayer for her to finally have peace and share her story of salvation. Maybe someone else will be encouraged by her to do the same. God Bless You All! Kellye
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Kellye,
Reading your blog takes me back to my boyfriend, Wes’s last couple of days. My heart goes out to you…and to Barbara. I am so glad that she got to the pastor and renew her relationship with God. I pray that this gives her peace in her journey.
In your previous post you mentioned almost feeling guilty for praying that God go ahead and take her. I felt the same way too…but Wes, like Barbara, was suffering so and…so weak…and so tired…we all had to tell him “it was ok to go…it’s ok,”
You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace,
Celeni
Kellye,
You and Barbara are in my prayers. I pray for a peaceful, pain-free transition. Hugs to you and your family during this most difficult time.
Blessings,
Monica
You and your family are in my prayers.
Kelley,
I can understand her begging to die. I do not deal well with pain. I feel sure if I was in much constant pain I would probably do the same. When my husband died in 2006 I did not want to lose him but on the other hand I could not stand to see him suffer so. I knew he was going to a better place.
You all are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart breaks for you. You are such a special lady.
God Bless you.
Blessings,
Joyce
Kelley,
One thing about it Barbara is going to place where she will no longer be in pain.
This reminds me of when my 41 years old nephew Charlie died Nov. 1, 2000 from colon cancer at Evergreen hospice in Kirkland, WA. It broke our hearts, but one by one we had to let him go and tell him it was OK. His wife was the biggest holdout and I had to stand by her side as he lay there too weak to even open his eyes or talk and tell her that she had to let him go because he wasn’t going until she told him it was all right. She finally did and later my son Keith came to see him for the first time, and he passed 15 minutes after Keith left.
It is so hard to see our loved ones pass, so my heart goes out to you. God bless you all.
Love, hugs and prayers,
sweete2 better known as Ethel Craven-Sweet
grandsktn1@yahoo.com
Dear Kelley; You have been so strong through all of Barbara’s ups and downs with the fight of her life. She is one lucky person to have had you in there, being strong for her. It is now her time to let go and be with god in her own special way. It takes miracles but to have her whole family surrounding her as she moves to a higher plane, is quite something when you think about it. Not many people have the opportunity to have a family gathering at their going out. This will be hard on you and her children but unfortunately this is how life has been designed. We have a lease on people till it no longer is possible and then we have to move on and remember their goodness and live by example. You have already shown us here at the blog, how comforting and caring a person you are. Bless that god takes care of you in your time of sorrow.
Weezie