kellye's Cancer Blog
December 29, 2009
I hope this helps at least one of you. It’s amazing technology for people to communicate with you.
For Christmas my cousin set up the neatest thing for my elderly aunt. She is 85 years old and doesn’t want to learn aything about the computer, emailing, surfing the web, anything, but she loves hearing from people. (Although her older sister even has a faebook page) Since she naps during the day some we all avoid calling her as much as we should for fear that we will wake her. Her granddaugher got her Presto Mail Service. We will all be able to communicate with her through this service. It is set up to print by her easy chair 3 times a day. Whenever we send her an email, or one with a picture, it prints out at the next scheulded time. It was set up a few days ago and she is loving all the emails she is getting. It is a great way to keep in touch with someone that doesn’t have email. Of course, she can’t respond back but you can set it up just for who you want to accept mail from and avoid spam. This would be great for someone battling cancer that doesn’t want to talk on the phone much or is too sick to email. It lets you know people are thinking of you even when you are too tired to communicate back. I know I sound like I am a sales rep for Presto, but I am just amazed at technology all the time. This is just an idea that is working for my family that I wanted to share with my family here. I had no idea something like this was out there. For anyone interested the web address is www.Presto.com.
Kelly – Thanks for your comment. I am kinda freaked out by how many people have passed this month. All way to young. I am starting to realize how strong cancer is. They went so quickly. I am truly sad. Just can’t believe it.
Posted on To Jill and everyone else on here;
I should have realized my posting above was actually promoting another web site. I am so sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking. I was just excited about being able to communicate with my aunt. Again, I apologize to Jill and all of you here. It was with the best intentions, but I was wrong and should not have posted the information. I have loved this site and have received so much support from everyone and hope I have been able to return some of that to others. So sorry, Kellye
Posted on Dear Kellye; If you didn’t post this information I would have been saddened since it could help a lot of our family here at the blog. I took no offence at you offering that website. Rules are rules but I’m sure Jill didn’t mind you doing that. I have never heard of it, but maybe that’s because it is in U.S. only not Canada? Anyway thanks as always.
Posted on Happy New Year Kellye! Thanks for telling us about this service above. I had no idea this was possible and it would be great for anyone who wants to know there thought about but does not want to get on the computer…. understandable.. my eyes are burning out from the light of the screen… need to get stronger and stronger glasses and I am sure its from the glare.
Well, hope you enjoyed a rewarding holiday season… REALLY love the pics of your family . . . and I just wanted to take a moment to check in and let you know your being thought about. . . .
Seeing the pics makes me think of all of those people cancer survivors who are living with cancer too—-. Its as challenging for caretakers, . . . I don;t know about you but the shock of the Haitian earthquake has me so sad . . . seeing all the death. . . and seeing Jill’s post above. . . I am so sensitive to loss now. . . and its easier to cry. Its feel good to have empathy and not be so selfish—as an artist one can be self-indulgent.
The anniversary of Barbara’s death has passed a few months ago and I hope you are holding up with much support and love around you. . . you’ve experienced a lot of loss and I hope that your life gets a little easier relative to loss.
Thinking about you with a hug and smile, Frank
Posted on November 5, 2009
It’s 12:45 am and I am the only one up. As I sit here reflecting back on this past year, I don’t really feel the peace that I thought I would at this point. It’s hard to believe she has been gone a whole year. I feel like I am clock watching. She passed around 3 am and I know I won’t be able to sleep before then. I miss her dearly. Barbara was loved by so many people. We have received several beautiful flower arrangements from out of towners for us to place on her grave tomorrow with all the grandchildren.
For the ones of you who know me and my story, you also know I have had a lot of loses in recent years. 3 years ago we lost my daddy to leukemia (acute myeloblastic leukemia), less than a year later it was my grandmother, also from leukemia, then my biological father, then Nov.6, 2008, we lost our dear sweet Barbara. Monday morning of this week we also lost my grandfather. He will be buried tomorrow; the one year anniversary of Barbara’s going home.
So now we have in just a week’s time the anniversary’s of my grandfather, Barbara, and my biological father.
I am sitting here debating deleting this posting. I suffer from depression and feel like this is all doom and gloom. But, that is how I am feeling now. I don’t want to even leave the house anymore. I am only 45 years old but it feels like a very old 45. I suffer from depression and so much want to feel good again. I have been researching electroshock therapy tonight. It may not work but it can’t hurt to ask.
You all are so inspiring and I hope I have not brought anyone else down. That’s why I almost didn’t post and also why I no longer talk to my old friends. Every pore in my body pours out sadness and depression. And, yes, my psych doc knows all of this.
Please let me apologize for my ‘pity party’. I believe it was Weezie (although it may have been someone else) last year that gave me a kick in the pants right where I needed it to straighten me up.
I will continue to pray daily and nightly for the ones I support, and the ones I don’t know but want God to hold their hands through their treatments.
Pop: May you rest in Peace
Homer Bridger 9/26/13 to 11/2/2009
WWII veteran and honor of receiving the Purple Heart for being shot in the Philippines.
We love you Pop!
Anniversary's of Heavenly Homecomings + a new one: POP RIP, 
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hi, kellye. with all that you have gone through it is no wonder that you are depressed. i think it is okay to feel the sadness in losing those you love. but, ultimately you are here and living. i pray that you will get the help you need to somehow learn to better cope with the sadness so that your life is not wasted. you are so young and i truly hope that someday soon you are able to start really living again. i would love to read a post from you in the near future telling us how much fun you are having and that you are really enjoying your life. please hang in there and know that i am praying for you. keep the faith. debby
Posted on Dear Kellye,
Oh, sweetie, I’m so sorry about your grandpa. It’s hard to imagine why some people have so much loss in their lives and why the losses so often cluster around certain times of the year. And then depression on top of all that!? You are going through a very difficult time. I also struggle with depression and I know how much it hurts, especially at times when even those without depression would be sad—the pain can be surprisingly deep and ever-present. It’s good that you posted. I don’t know anything, but it has been my experience that, when I can no longer carry myself through life, I need to turn to others to pray me through. The love and prayers of others have carried me through things I thought I would not be able to endure. Thanks for letting us do that for you.
Prayers to you and your family during this very sad time.
Peace,
Kathy
Posted on I am so sorry about your Pop. You have a right to have a pity party if you want to. Deaths seem to come in bunches at times. I know from experience how hard it is and I also know that some days are much harder than others. You have my heartfelt sympathy. My love, thoughts and prayers are with you.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Joyce In NC
Posted on I wanted to give you your time and space before posting. I’m sorry to hear of not only this most recent loss, but of all your losses. I lost my grandmother 2 years ago to alzheimiers and mom two months ago to uterine cancer, and a very close friend about 10 years ago to suicide. They may not be as many, but they are all very significant losses to me as yours are to you. All I know is that grieving, and finding a path to your personal healing is as important as moving on and getting back to life. You have a lot of supporters and listeners here and we will be right here when you’re ready. As I was told when my mom passed away, I just have another angel to watch over me now – So I wanted to pass that on to you. Honor them, love them, never forget them.
With lots of love,
Alyssa
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Thanks for your support - 
